When I see you, I scream, you annoy me.
All it takes is seeing a picture or your profile on some other site.
Dude, why in the hell did I make you impossible to forget?
Its not like you are evil or anything.
Its just it would be nice to not remember the feeling of rejection.
The pain I feel when you pushed me away.
I do remember you warning me, So its fair.
I guess.
Other than, remembering you altogether hurts too.
You were really awesome, even your flaws were rad.
I am not going to cry, even that was the problem in the first place.
That I didn't show emotions.
But little do you know, I cried consecutively for 4 months.
Yes, it was about you, but more about me and you.
About things that I've forgotten about.
I built up over the decades of my numbed personality.
But why did that have to stop us?
I still cared about you.
What about the fact that you pushed me away cause you could show how you felt?
Grr, the pain still lingers.
Its been a year, and I still care.
I still dream.
I know that I am "over" you, but I do dare think of you.
It isn't a crime.
Apart from the fact I feel locked up in this.
You changed me.
I hate change.
Except, this change was for the better.
Willam Shakespeare once wrote "Absence from those we love is self from self - a deadly banishment."
How true....How painful.
