I was bored and looky looky what Lily found.....

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Come On Ladies!!!

So,  I just went on this "date" if  that is what you wanna call it. Well, when I met people I have stardards. I call them ...

"Three Musts"

1. Must attend College.
2. Must have a car that belongs to them.
3. Must have a job.

Okay, there are some exceptions. People aren't perfect, but these are mandatory when dating me.
I have a job, going to school, and I have a car that is mine. Why can't they? So as I was saying....

I met this chick that my friend put me on a blind date with. I didn't know UNTIL I got there. But I wish I haven't even gone.

The chick hasn't even gradutated from high school yet, and she is 20 years old. OMG NO!
She doesn't have a permit alone a car.
She works at  Burger King ( I feel that is her future already)

She wants to go to the Marines in June. I said, " Go ahead, there isn't much option, is there?"
I understand that isn't really nice. Although, I have listened to her life story and I keep thinking to myself.

"She caused these things to happen to her own ass. Why in the hell is she all confused? She
made her life shitty. She should of stayed in school, and maybe she would of not gotten kicked out and was put in alternative school. Maybe she should of praticed drinking at 16 instead of stealing cars. Just maybe she would have the life she wanted if she just did what was needed of her lazy ass"...

But ladies and gents, I just got up and drove off. It was so hard to keep listening, I lefted.

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She was the angel when I need to be rescued.

I am hurt.

Like fucking pist.

I want her back, but I can't

She was the angel when I need to be rescued.

She always knew what to say or do to make me feel a whole alot better.

She never let me down.

She always was up front with me.

I could always tell her what was on my mind.

She became my best friend.

She made me laugh when noone could.

She loved me so much.

I usually can "get over" someone pretty quickly.

Longest was about two weeks.

But it now have been months.

She has mostly likely forgotten about me.

But I hope I am wrong.

I hope all the things I feel didn't hurt so much.

I have been crying almost everyday.

I don't know if I can take this any longer.

I have never been this emotional in my life.

I've never even cried at people funerals.

I just bow my head and thats it.

Nothing less..Nothing more.

But this, this shit hurts.

I don't know how to even fix this.

I mean, I usually can pick myself off the ground and walk away.

Uh, I can't now.

What the hell happen to me.

I called my grandmother not too long ago.

We talked. In the summer of 2010 I will no longer be a resident of Indiana.

But of California.

I know for a fact that noone is going to read this, so I can say it on here.

I know for a fact that I moving away cause I want to get away from the tears.

I also know that they aren't going to permanently disapper.

But I can start over.

I can fix me.

In the one place I feel free.

Home.

California.

(I wrote this in November in 2009, I thought I should post it)